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If you don’t doubt, you won’t grow

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August 9, 2011 at 8:59 am

Create Within Me a New Heart

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A few days have passed and my friend hasn’t yet acknowledged my apologies.  I’m pretty heart-broken by that, but I know that life goes on.

Create in me a clean heart, O Lord, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. (Psalm 51:10)

I’ve been constantly praying for God to give me a clean heart.  A new spirit.  I am putting my trust in Him that everything will be okay.  So far, it’s working.   I can already feel the burdens being released from my shoulders.  I know that I am forgiven, but I have to forgive myself and that’s tough.  But if I will trust, I must let it go.  Let it be. 

I will try to spend some time in adoration, nearer to Christ.

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June 14, 2010 at 9:49 pm

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Lay It at the Foot of the Cross

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Over the last few weeks, I’ve been noting how weak I feel in my faith. I was driving around today, running last-minute errands before I leave to visit family tomorrow, and I turned on my local Catholic radio station and there was this man relating a story about the inspiration of the Holy Spirit. He was recalling a woman who told him that she was very angry with God because her child was diagnosed with juvenile diabetes. He told her to take her anger to the foot of the cross. . . Read the rest of this entry »

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May 31, 2010 at 4:13 pm

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Cutting Strings

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Ever get those days when you’re just fed up?  I’m annoyed at something in my life and I’m not sure what it is.  I’m too old to beat around the bush and I’m too young to feel old.  My patience is wearing down with people who can’t make firm decisions, even small ones.  But maybe it’s time for some self-reflection.  If indecisiveness is what is annoying me about other people, then perhaps I am being indecisive about something.  What is it, exactly?  Here’s my theory:

I am coming to a point of self-realization.  I know what I want, but I can’t quite get there on my own.  I feel like I make a firm decision to go in one direction, but God seems to have a different path planned for me.  So I pray, not my will, but Thy will. . . and I try to follow that path, only to come to a chasm of doubt in my heart.  “Faith is taking the first step, even when you can’t see the entire staircase.” (MLK, Jr.). 

I know this is about trust, but I have these marionette strings tied to my soul from the flesh.  I am not letting my Maker turn me into a girl, because I choose to lie to myself.  I feel like lying to myself will somehow fill that chasm in my heart, only because a lie temporarily numbs the sore edges.  Trusting in God is like pouring alcohol on the wound.  The burn is painful, quick even, but for my own good.  In fact, if the wound isn’t sanitized, a grave scar, or something worse, remains.

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May 25, 2010 at 7:32 pm

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Help Thou My Unbelief!

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Sometimes it seems to me as though I am only blogging about stress and sadness but I am actually rather content.  I suppose I blog when I’m nervous because the poetical or philosophical side of me tends to surface during times of trial.  I assure you, I am aware of my fortunes, too.

I’ve been building a lot of relationships.  If I’ve learned anything over the last year it’s that I have to strengthen my bridges.  That means I have to come out of my shell at times, do things that I don’t necessarily want to do and be places I would rather not be.  And every time I’ve had an attitude about doings things I don’t want to do and being places I don’t want to be, I’ve been proven wrong each and every time.  I’ve met some interesting people and created some great opportunities for myself, not to mention giving a little boost to my self-confidence.

I admit that I doubt in God’s intentions for me at times.  I pray for trust. . . and I am amply rewarded when I find my faith!

“But if you can do anything, have compassion and help us!”

Jesus said to him, “If you can!  Everything is possible to one who has faith.”

Then the boy’s father cried out, “I do have faith!  Help my unbelief!”  (Mark 9:22-24)

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May 16, 2010 at 9:33 pm

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My Papa Didn’t Raise No Fool

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I was reading another blogger’s post this week (Come & See) and she brought to light John 14:1 (“Do not let your hearts be troubled.  Trust in God and trust also in Me.”), which was also in the Sunday Gospel reading.  She was reflected deeply on this verse and it was a little contagious because all week I’ve been trying to take her approach about it.  And it’s already produced some pretty amazing results. Read the rest of this entry »

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May 11, 2010 at 10:25 pm

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The Eternal Week

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March 5, 2010 at 11:08 pm

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