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“Do not let your heart be troubled; believe in God, believe also in Me. In My Father’s house are many dwelling places; if it were not so, I would have told you; for I go to prepare a place for you.  If I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you to Myself, that where I am, there you may be also.” Jn. 14:1-3

I keep repeating this constantly in my head these days because my faith is being tested tremendously at the moment as one center of my universe is being “replaced” by another. I try several times a day to lay my sadness, anger, and anxiety at the foot of the cross. But I can’t help being a bit bitter when I ask of God, “How many times in my life must I lose everyone and everything?” Mother Mary, pray for me, because I know you can relate.

Why do we suffer? So that we can better appreciate mercy. So that change may come about…

Prayers sorely needed. Because I can’t find hope in places I’d expect to find it. There’s a fault line in the center of my heart.


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February 2, 2015 at 9:02 am

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Facing my own shame.

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Tonight I was dropping my husband off for a “guy’s night.” It’s always a really anxious thing for me and it drives my husband nuts that it has to be that way—sometimes to the point of real anger with me about it. He thinks, I believe, that I’m projecting some blame on him for how my ex-husband abused my anxiety with his drinking habits. It’s a recurring wound between my husband and I. But it’s really about anxiety. I’m getting better about it, slowly and with lots of prayer, but it will always (always) be there. How I handle it is the key component. Read the rest of this entry »

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February 2, 2015 at 6:43 am

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