All That I Have Written Is Straw. . .

Meanderings of a Catholic Devout

Home to Rest

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Tomorrow I head to Houston to finally bury my father’s ashes.  I am looking forward to spending time again in my home town.  I will need to rely on my home to help me through this.

I haven’t been thinking too much about tomorrow until just now.  I took the ashes out and set them on the table.  Tomorrow morning, I will buckle them in the front seat of my truck and my dad and I will take one last road trip together.  I hope he is happy.

There will be no ceremony.  A handful of friends will accompany me at the cemetery.  I think we will just have a moment of silence for a bit and then I will give the nod to the folks to fill in the earth.   I have no prepared speech.  I don’t feel I need one.  My life alone is a testament to the successes of my father.  He lives in me.  In my heart.

I was listening to a friend today describe how much he says he loves his son each time he sees him.  It made me cry, though I hid my tears.  I miss my father saying that to me.  I miss how much my father was into me, how much he was proud of me, and how I delighted him.  He used to say that I was the best thing that he ever did, his best investment.  It’s funny how I see things differently now that I’m older and now that he’s no longer around.  I miss him very much.

I was watching the movie Inception this past weekend.  He would have loved that movie.  I wish he had been here to talk to after watching it.  Perhaps over some Marble Slab ice cream, like he and I used to do.  That would have made it perfect.


Written by Written Straw

July 19, 2010 at 9:39 pm

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  1. I’m sorry for your loss. Ironically, my mother died on the day you wrote this post about your father. I miss her, too.

    I just found your blog through the divorcedcatholic fb page and I’m glad I did.

    May God bless and bring you peace,


    August 9, 2010 at 9:00 am

    • Thanks, Manya. My condolences for the loss of your mother. I’ll keep her and you in my prayers.

      Written Straw

      August 9, 2010 at 9:31 am

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