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Lay It at the Foot of the Cross

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Over the last few weeks, I’ve been noting how weak I feel in my faith. I was driving around today, running last-minute errands before I leave to visit family tomorrow, and I turned on my local Catholic radio station and there was this man relating a story about the inspiration of the Holy Spirit. He was recalling a woman who told him that she was very angry with God because her child was diagnosed with juvenile diabetes. He told her to take her anger to the foot of the cross. . . Read the rest of this entry »

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May 31, 2010 at 4:13 pm

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Blessings in a Bundle

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My niece was finally born this afternoon!  I’m extremely tired (and I didn’t have to do any of the labor!).  I just wanted to post a quick thought of thanksgiving for all the prayers and well wishes from friends and acquaintances who have had to listen to me brag for the last 8 months or so about my sister’s pregnancy.  The girl was a healthy 7 lbs 15 oz and born with all ten fingers and all ten toes!  I’m sure she’s beautiful–I get to meet her on Tuesday and I can’t wait!

When I got the message that my sister was going into the delivery room, I prayed the rosary.  I dispatched my guardian angel.  And my sister is just great aside from a severe cold.  Now both she and the child will rest as a new chapter begins in her life and I can’t wait to watch it unfold.

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May 29, 2010 at 9:31 pm

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Cutting Strings

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Ever get those days when you’re just fed up?  I’m annoyed at something in my life and I’m not sure what it is.  I’m too old to beat around the bush and I’m too young to feel old.  My patience is wearing down with people who can’t make firm decisions, even small ones.  But maybe it’s time for some self-reflection.  If indecisiveness is what is annoying me about other people, then perhaps I am being indecisive about something.  What is it, exactly?  Here’s my theory:

I am coming to a point of self-realization.  I know what I want, but I can’t quite get there on my own.  I feel like I make a firm decision to go in one direction, but God seems to have a different path planned for me.  So I pray, not my will, but Thy will. . . and I try to follow that path, only to come to a chasm of doubt in my heart.  “Faith is taking the first step, even when you can’t see the entire staircase.” (MLK, Jr.). 

I know this is about trust, but I have these marionette strings tied to my soul from the flesh.  I am not letting my Maker turn me into a girl, because I choose to lie to myself.  I feel like lying to myself will somehow fill that chasm in my heart, only because a lie temporarily numbs the sore edges.  Trusting in God is like pouring alcohol on the wound.  The burn is painful, quick even, but for my own good.  In fact, if the wound isn’t sanitized, a grave scar, or something worse, remains.

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May 25, 2010 at 7:32 pm

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Reflections on Pentecost

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Pentecost by Nora Kelly

As much as I’d like to deny it, I have somehow caught whatever is going around.  Normally, I would just take NyQuil or whatever elixir suited the symptoms and sweat it out over a few days.  But since I’m going out of town in a week to behold my newborn niece (that is, she will be newborn by the time I get there), I can’t afford to bring germs with me.  It’s not that I even feel that ill (just a sore throat, almost like laryngitis), but I can’t/just don’t want to take any risks.  Plus, the intangible inner ear itch is extremely annoying.

Today was a festival at my parish church.  I was surprised by how many people I know and how many people know me.  I felt very much like I was a part of the family–which is the point, after all.  As I putted along with my iced tea in hand, I was reflecting on how distant I feel from God this past month.  I can tell He is very much present in my life (especially today), but I still get this sad sense within that I am somehow turning my back on Him.  I am in serious need of prayer, reflection. 

Today is the birthday of the church!  It is Pentecost.  It is one of my personal favorite feast days, as we celebrate the descent of the Holy Spirit.  It is this third person of the Trinity that I am most grateful for lately (not as if I could love any of the whole any less).  When I am sad and needing comfort, it is this Spirit that gives me perseverance.  It is this Spirit that refuses to abandon me, the promise of Christ that He will be with me until the end of times.  It is this very same Spirit that is the reason for Hope, even on the hopeless.

Once again, I implore the Holy Spirit to enter my heart, mind and soul and to provide clarity in my quest for love and truth.

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May 23, 2010 at 8:38 pm

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Not Left Alone

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Another few days, another few boxes I’ve sorted through.  I’ve made this important self-discovery, though.  In one of my old boxes, I had old letters and emails from previous boyfriends.  I’m not sure why I kept them–I guess I had forgotten that I had them.  I read through a couple of them before I put them in my “recycle” waste pile.  I had kept everything, too–from the sweet, courting letters to the awful, heartbreaking ones.   Then it dawned on me about just how much I’ve grown up this last year. Read the rest of this entry »

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May 20, 2010 at 8:31 pm

Help Thou My Unbelief!

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Sometimes it seems to me as though I am only blogging about stress and sadness but I am actually rather content.  I suppose I blog when I’m nervous because the poetical or philosophical side of me tends to surface during times of trial.  I assure you, I am aware of my fortunes, too.

I’ve been building a lot of relationships.  If I’ve learned anything over the last year it’s that I have to strengthen my bridges.  That means I have to come out of my shell at times, do things that I don’t necessarily want to do and be places I would rather not be.  And every time I’ve had an attitude about doings things I don’t want to do and being places I don’t want to be, I’ve been proven wrong each and every time.  I’ve met some interesting people and created some great opportunities for myself, not to mention giving a little boost to my self-confidence.

I admit that I doubt in God’s intentions for me at times.  I pray for trust. . . and I am amply rewarded when I find my faith!

“But if you can do anything, have compassion and help us!”

Jesus said to him, “If you can!  Everything is possible to one who has faith.”

Then the boy’s father cried out, “I do have faith!  Help my unbelief!”  (Mark 9:22-24)

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May 16, 2010 at 9:33 pm

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My Papa Didn’t Raise No Fool

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I was reading another blogger’s post this week (Come & See) and she brought to light John 14:1 (“Do not let your hearts be troubled.  Trust in God and trust also in Me.”), which was also in the Sunday Gospel reading.  She was reflected deeply on this verse and it was a little contagious because all week I’ve been trying to take her approach about it.  And it’s already produced some pretty amazing results. Read the rest of this entry »

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May 11, 2010 at 10:25 pm

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